I recently got discharged from hospital after a 2 day stay for the first surgery of my life. It was only a laparoscopy for appendix removal, but I was still pretty much immobile for my stay and on a drip for most of it.
Anyway.
I got back yesterday, severely missing the atmosphere and comfort of the hospital, but glad to be back in the company of friends. Today I had a massive cry and I couldn't quite work out why. Generally I have a teary a couple of times a year, and always know why, but this one seems to have no reason.
Is it usual to become slightly mentally weird upon coming out of hospital, whether it be due to painkillers creating a slightly different mental state, or something else? Or am I just being a cretinous wankstain who can't deal with real life?
Pic vaguely related, I now have three small cuts in those areas. Fun times.

Am I unreasonable /emo/?
My boyfriend and I have been together almost three years, and most of those three years has been spent living far apart (he lives down south and I'm a midlands girl at uni).
We have something of a routine where we text goodnight before we go to sleep. Sometimes if he is out he wont necessarily text back instantly, but as long as he at least sends one when he gets home, I'm comforted.
I'm not particularly paranoid, by the way, I just like to know that he is home ok and coherent enough to remember who I am.
However occasionally he 'forgets' to text me at all, which obviously makes me feel quite upset because I end up feeling slightly forgotten, (and a tiny little bit paranoid), usually some level of 'discussion' and apologising ensues most recently ending with him promising not to do it again, or at least try his hardest not to.
Tonight was no different to these nights, I said goodnight fairly early and went to sleep, knowing he was at the pub and not expecting an instant respones. Then I did that annoying 2am-feels-alot-later-wakeup, noticed he hadnt texted and sent a half jokey/half annoyed sarcastic text for him to read in the morning, and decided to waste my time getting back to sleep on facebook (yes, i know, its shit, I'm halfway to deleting it).
There I discovered that he'd posted some shit about something at 1am.
Now I ask you /emo/, is it unreasonable that I feel like he has been a total cunt to me? Perhaps I'm just very tired but I feel like it is much worse that he's found time to facebook when he got home, but not to text me back. So much so that I've been lying awake trying to decide whether this is worth it anymore, he's absolutely brilliant and perfect but he does this so often that it worries me when he goes out because it's so easy for him to forget about me.
tl;dr - I'm just having a bit of a vent so I can get to sleep with an empty head. Though if you can be bothered to read it some advice might be helpful.
p.s - if YOU'RE reading this, yes, this is how much you pissed me off and upset me tonight. I want to say many other things to you but not here.

/emo/, my girlfriend, of a few years now, a bit back admitted to me that she believed she was a lesbian.

Now, I am fully aware a bond between two women can be one of the most gorgeous breath-taking events that can take place, and that one can experience and share... possibly with a larger audience (all the better), on earth. Well, taking into consideration that they do not resemble anything closely to: Rosie O'Donnell (thank the heavens she does not, and is very fit!).

With that said: No, she's not into threesomes or orgies (that I know of anyway). We've discussed this in the past, not as propositions, but as analyzation of other relationships. So suggesting a threesome would be out of the question. Although, it'd probably be a great way to end the relationship: Sort of like exchanging a position of power with another official, days after election day. Again though, the likelihood of this happening however, would be very highly unlikely.

That aside, would it be best to part ways in such circumstances? Or should I stick it out, taking into considerations that her: desires, wants, and needs are that of another woman. All while in the back of my mind coming into terms that she will eventually want to leave me for another girl, regardless of how much she loves me.

I say this as she didn't state she wanted to end the relationship, not yet anyway. More than likely due to not finding that possible perfect girl yet.

While we do have our downfalls, I do adore and get along with this girl very well (the most I ever have with anyone), nonetheless, with all this into play: I am bit hesitant to say whether the relationship can continue for years to come without fully addressing this issue/desire.

I was fully aware she was attracted to girls prior entering the relationship (she's had a girlfriend before), and was completely willing to face the consequences it may present. Regardless, a relationship is a relationship and I knew it would still be hard to deal with in such circumstances.

Now, suppose this were a joke. She would have that type of humour, but signs point otherwise in regards to her interests and character. So while it may have been a playful joke, I am still fully aware she thinks of girls in that kind of way. So suppose it is, however: I believe them to be subconscious thoughts regardless, judging from past events that have taken place.

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I am not very good at this life thing.

Mainstream society seems to befriend me, use me, alienate me and then finally banish me.

What is wrong with me, is it a demon inside of me?


Are people cruel, or is it me?

Why does nobody care about my welfare, am I really not worthy of this world.


People say they can never feel my emotion, like I do not give off any vibes, some kind of vampire-like personality.

But deep inside of me I have these emotions, I feel the pain in my heart when I look at how things are and I feel the tension and vibes of others.

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Friday night, alone as usual :(.
The only girl I've ever loved is leaving soon, saw her for the last time today, she'll never know how I feel.
Got a job/apprenticeship today. Should feel happy about it, but this girl is constantly on my mind. She leaves in 5 days.
Basically, how do I get out of this little pit of unhappiness? (already fapped...)

Quick question chaps.

Girl i've been seeing since beginning of january, everything went swimmingly till she caught a virus exactly a month ago - couldn't see her because she was being sick/asleep most of time, then i caught it - amongst work etc i was too exhausted to even move from my house to see her, she dissapears the weekend after, goes on bender from thursday till sat night - i spend valentines day with her, thats it.
Now since the beginning of this, she's gone really cold - only would speak to me if i rang her, won't reply to texts - well she spoke to me on facebook chat a few times.. then i send a message on friday saying "if you don't want to see me just say.x". Heard nothing since, am i right in thinking that this is a lost cause?

Social recluse here, are there any dating sites that are free(get their monies from adverts, not subscriptions)?

Every dating site I've tried turns out to be "you have to subscribe to message other users".

Doesn't sound like a huge problem, but for a social recluse with nobody to talk to and not enough balls to socialize in public, it's a problem enough for me. I'm not paying £25 a month for dating sites.

I feel a bout of clinical depression coming on.

I feel the same icy sinking feeling in my chest and the general dejectedness I got last time this happened. Last time this happened I had to take pills for a year to get myself back to functionality. I can't fucking go through that again.

God I hate this.

I'm 18 and there's this girl in the year below. I only started speaking to her in the past month because she has the lead in the music I'm in. Let's call her Rachel

My best friend Jamie and I were invited to a birthday party and that is where we started talking to Rachel a lot. My friend and I were drunk, she was not but we had lots of fun. She added both of us in facebook too.

In discussion I said to my friend, who I might even call a bro, that I was gonna go for her in the coming weeks. He then said he would too.

Anyway he started coming a long to our music rehearsals. He isn't in the god damn musical but he came to scrape and build up his chances with her.

On the train back home last Friday he asked me if I had her number because he has. I said no and he said 'you wouldn't tell me even if you had'.

Last night I was at another of my friends house and he said 'Oh Jamie said he is going to ask her out either today or tomorrow. He said he told you this in a text and you probably thought he was joking'. I was like WTF. *On Valentines day too.

Then today he sent me a text saying 'Guess who I asked out'. I was fucking raging and I sent him 'Guess I lost. then started talking about something else so I wouldn't let on I was pissed'

I'm just fucking raging. 1) I was away at an interview from Monday-Wed and I was going to arrange to meet up with her one of those days.

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Evening chaps,

Last night I tried to help a girl calm down when she had drank too much, her boyfriend thought I was trying to sexually assault her.

Now all my house mates believe I am some sort of scum-bag even though I have done nothing but be polite and kind to them for months.

One of the fuckers called my boss and I was just fired over the phone at 10pm.

I have £120 left, not enough to find somewhere else.


These people are not evan letting me explain the situation, I tried to help and calm somone down and i get all this shit , pic related - it fucks your life up.

Hi /emo/
I've got really low self confidence, I've not gone out with a girl in about a year, and the same before that; and I think it's because I just don't have the balls to ask anyone out, I've liked several girls in the past year but I've either been too afraid to ask one out, or the friendship was just sort of left to float away, which seems to happen a lot with girls as well. I'm not really the most socially active of people, but I wouldn't go so far as to say I was a hermit, given the chance I'd always hang around with mates. Still, there's this girl I like at the minute, and I just don't know what to do about it, given the opportunity I would ask her out, but I keep on giving myself lame excuses (like I've not been given the opportunity...)
Although this isn't the only thing that's keeping medown, reckon if I manage to do something right it'll help with the other things.
Sorry if it didn't make an awful lot of sense, I'm not used to asking for help much, and thanks /emo/.

Hey /emo/. Pre-relationship thread
Met a girl this weekend, got on well, got with her, saw here again the next day, managed to get her back to mine and did things of a sexual nature, whilst chatting lots and still being really comfortable. Woke up, embarrassed due to her friends being in the flat (were up for my flatmates birthday).
But yeah, that's essentially all the back story.

We started texting and we're both sending like 3 page long texts to eachother. For the past 2 nights we've spent 50+ minutes on the phone per night, talking about nothing substantial. We're extremely similar in our insecurities and social failure (which we have in ample amounts) and we get on really well; I even asked her if she was free this weekend.
She lives in the midlands and I don't though, which is the biggie, otherwise I'd be asking a different question.
What do I do about this? When I talk to her I enjoy it and feel comfortable, and when I think about seeing her I feel happy. But I'm feeling scared.
She's admitted to me that, albeit being slightly nervous due to how she'll be coming to see me specifically, and that 'it's moving a bit fast'. That's what's really getting to me, even though I'd like to think of myself as a relationship oriented person. This girl's great, we're great together. I'll hate myself if I screw it up but I'll get over it eventually, but for some reason it seems quite serious already as we've both acknowledged feelings for eachother.

Basically I'm scared of the thought that I might have to enter a committed long term relationship with this girl. She's the only girl who rivals my issues (average but specific, not saying waaah) and understands, but the only one I find physically attractive.
Also might be of note; since I've come to the conclusion she fancies me I've gotten less attracted to her, which always happens.

Too long? Essentially me being a whiny nancy boy.

/emo/ I need your help to get motivated, 2009 was a pretty shitty year simply because I didn't do anything worth noting, it was dull and uneventful. I'd like 2010 not go in the same direction, yet I have no ideas on how to make life a little more interesting.

I thought it would be a good idea to get some sort of list going, maybe 50 things to do before the end of the year. So I'm kindly asking you to help contribute to this list, is there anything you can think of that I should do before this year ends.

I'll start: Get laid.

I was buggered a few days ago and ended up writing a small essay on what I thought my personality was like, and since I have it and I feel I've pegged down the more specific aspects, it's pretty scary.

Essentially, challenges mean nothing to me if I know I can complete them. No motivation at all is felt. This could probably be glossed over, but the fact is it extends to social stuff too. I lose friends because I get bored if there's no drama in it which I can have the joy of overcoming. People who are unreservedly nice and open make me uncomfortable and I tend to not want to be friends with them (although I think it's pretty normal). I actually feel I need to be slightly looked down on by friends, so there's something to strive for. I used to think this was my inferiority complex telling me anyone who liked me must be a bit of a shit. But I don't think I'm that insecure.

The real hell is when it comes to women, as I tend to get attracted to them really easily and I relish the process of trying to seduce them. However, I rarely, almost never, receive reciprocation in terms of feelings from them. What worries me is what would happen if they did; would I lose interest? If girls like me I don't find them attractive, and if they don't find me attractive I make it my mission to change their minds.

Does anyone else do this? It's getting pretty annoying and making me worry about the future, since I want kids and a wife I haven't just settled for. I'm sure it's not a phase, it goes back consistently 5/6 years.

Also sucks for video games as I rarely complete anything once I know it's inevitable. I just stop having fun.

Sorry for the silliness, it's late and I'm getting a bit thoughtsy.