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I seem to have removed myself completely from my original social background. I come from Shithole Post-industrial Town, UK, where my mum and dad continue to work unhappily. I've run the full gamut of postgraduate degrees and well paid corporate jobs. I've now secured a medical research job abroad.
I guess the effect was predictable enough in hindsight, but I realised recently that I now spend all of my time rubbing shoulders with academics, doctors, lawyers, engineers. And it's not just what they do, either. Their parents are always academics, doctors, lawyers, engineers.
It also goes beyond work. The girls I date, the friends I make at university, the people at my job, they're all thoroughly middle class. I don't think anyone realises how keenly I feel the differences, how painful it can be to notice them, or how much extra effort I've had to put in just to get here.
It's frustrating because it comes up in constantly, sometimes in really tangible ways (they'll always have savings accounts well built from their childhoods, will always have the money to go on expensive trips and eat out, they are not stressing about their next rent payment even when they're short) and sometimes more subtlely (social cues, general levels of comfort, confidence, and optimism, acceptance of status quo worldviews).
People back home don't care to understand what I do or why I moved. At the same time, even my most intimate friends here look at me as though I'm from a different planet when I talk about my life experiences.
I feel like I've achieved everything I wanted but I have no one to truly share it with.