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Having a bit of trouble getting into the daily grind - it feels like all I do is work, eat and sleep. My jobs total up to about 65+ hours a week on average.
I'm trying to save up for next year, as I've given myself until September to make some sort of decision. There's light at the end of the tunnel, but the stasis right now seems a bit unbearable.
Been getting angry at myself for not having enough time to spend with the missus and my friends.
My work environments are both skeleton staffed, with teamwork being important for our own safety. I'm not getting withdrawn from my co-workers, but I can feel my brains getting turned into the hive mind, and that really scares me.
I don't want to isolate myself from the people around me, but I'm scared that if I don't, then I won't have enough money put away for myself when I do need to make a change.
(for clarification's sake, any decision I make in September will be more of the same - I've applied to loads of shipping companies for cadetships. I'm 25, and I need to have money put away to take the pay hit during training)
How do you deal with getting turned into a husk of your former self through supplanting your self for money?