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I'm such a dumb fucking idiot and it has ruined my confidence (anus)
So I (22 male) have always been fucked in the head. Starting a few years ago, I started experiencing with anal play while masturbating. Well, it went way overboard and I bought a huge sex toy and basically made it fit in my ass even though it hurt a bit. I'm fucked in the head, yes. Then about 4 months ago I had my anal virginity taken by an old man who surprise fisted me with 4 fingers inside and rotating the hand too. Both of these activities have stretched/worn out the skin around my anus (due to the anus being forced to expand). So now it's like I have excess skin around the asshole (not hemorrhoids).
Now my problem is that I got this loose "extra" skin and my ass falls out a little after I poop. If I squat down naked I can see some skin hanging down behind the asshole where my ass crack is supposed to be. It looks fucking awful and I feel like I'm an 70 year old man with anal prolapse. I already look fucked up and worn out, how am I gonna look when I'm 40? There's no way a medical procedure can fix this. I'm willing to post photos but I really just kind of wanna sleep forever. I don't know how I've managed to ruin myself so much...
I want to start over but that's not possible and it's just over for me. I'm so fucking tired of hurting about how big of a piece of shit I am. I have RUINED my own body. At this point trying to get better is only going to feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I just wanna fucking cry in bed and stop going to the gym / work / talk to anyone. I really dont want anyone to say "you're depressed so seek help" or something. This is the cause of my sadness. Either it ends or I do.
(A good day to you Sir!)