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No. 30589
Anonymous
13th March 2021 Saturday 1:53 pm
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>How did it work out for you in the end?
Probably not what you want to hear but it ended up, well, ending. Not entirely because of the sex thing though, in fairness; and in retrospect part of the reason I didn't want to fuck her was all those little things that would eventually split us up.
And if I'm completely honest with myself that was the thing- It wasn't my sex drive that was gone, it's just that I didn't want to fuck her. I'm an introvert at heart so any great amount of time spent with another person eventually wears down my energy, and she wouldn't ever leave me alone long enough to recharge. If she'd have given me a bit more space, I might have had more enthusiasm for it, but I couldn't get that through to her, try as I might.
Comparing it to my current partner, there's a night and day difference. We're not fucking every morning and every night, it's maybe once a week or two at the moment. But given the circumstances of the past year that's understandable, we're practically prison cellmates, so we don't give each other any grief over it. She did ask me once if I was losing interest in her, and I asked her in return, "When's the last time you sucked my knob?" and she went "Yeah, fair point."
It's hard to find her really desirable when 99% of the time all I see is her sat there slobbing it in front of the telly with greasy hair, in her dressing gown, covered in the stains of spilled Chinese. It's hardly sexy in b4 "speak for yourself", and I'm perfectly sure she feels the same way about me sat in the dark with a thousand yard stare in front of Elder Scrolls Online, having only got up to either piss or make Pot Noodle for the past two days. But given the circumstances, it's not really fair to expect each other to try much harder.
Point is, there's no conflict or tension over it, so it's not brewing into something ugly down the line. If it was my ex we'd probably have come to physical violence by now.
Anyway sage for turning this into my own blog post, soz.
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