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This is going to be a silly thread but I just want to get it down somewhere. I work very hard from day to day. I have a physically and emotionally demanding job, and I also put in time to gym (it requires a fairly high level of fitness), and I'm taking a correspondence course in the evenings/weekends.
Most of what I do, I do privately by choice. I chose my career, what to study, etc.. All my goals are set by myself, and I hold myself to a high standard in most things. I feel stupid even typing it out, but some days I come home, I'm wrecked, and I just want someone to cuddle and tell me I'm doing a good job. I'm so used to running off intrinsic motivation to do things, but I do often crave a recognition of my effort. I do occasionally get it in nice comments and so on, but consistent support and affection would be better.
I dont even know what I'm getting at, exactly. When I think of things that are missing, the first that springs to mind is that it has been a couple of years since my last relationship. But I'm not even sure these are the sort of things I could reasonably expect from a partner, especially when I wouldn't have much time to give back.
Reading back over this my only thought is to suck it up. Plenty of people do what I do without someone to pat them on the back at the end of the day. Yet knowing someone cares is important to your health. What am I really in need of?