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How does one measure shallowness?
I quite frequently find myself thinking 'why haven't I noticed this myself?', 'why didn't I cover this angle?', 'why I didn't even attempt to go harder here?'. That leads to a slightly uncomfortable situation when I see other people fare effortlessly when and where I had failed - because I didn't put enough thought in it. A bit annoying if it's just a video game, more so if it concerns some real life matter.
The same pattern emerges fairly everywhere. It also makes me question my judgement regarding various people in my life. I still trust my gut - it has served me reasonably well in my interactions. But whenever the time comes for re-assessment because I'd just discovered fresh pieces of information about something or someone, I start pondering if I'm actually naive and gullible despite fancying myself as mildly cynical and jaded about things. At times though I feel like it's a cheap negativistic variation of being cynical for the sake of it, not the introspective see-through-it kind.
I don't beat myself over these things, nor am I peaceful. No one likes being clueless. Recently, I've noticed ruminating about this too much. I might just dismiss it as what I've just named it - ruminations - but it's something that is too close to my 'core', that I need to figure out in order to know how to proceed and to go by about it. I actually might be a clueless shallow berk who thinks too much of himself and if that's the case, I would like to fix it.
Maybe you lads could give me some of your insight one more time. I'm disorientated.