I guess you have already talked about all this shit, however i cant find any related, so here it is.
Essentially I am straight, I don't look at guys in the street, compare them or anything like that, Nor do I wish to have any emotional contact (no kissing ect)
however, when I am horny, I always have an earge to watch guys getting fucked in the ass, after a while, I started to image me getting fucked in the ass, being a submissive bottom slut, sucking and taking it, bound and sometimes against my will.
this continued, until My last ex (I had to throw it away so she didn't find it) I even owned a dildo, 6inchs and shaped like a cock, i even sometimes stuck it to the wall and sucked it off thinking i needed to earn it for it to come in me. (suction cup).
i even masted making precum come out by riding it, However every time i came, I would sit there with it inside me and cum over myself and feel guilty.
I had even aggreed for someone to fuck me over the net before I wussed out the night before, I really wasnt ready to be committed to opening lets say, the Pandoras box.
>>1110 I'm not really attracted to any guys but I do love traps. However, I do sometimes get horny and watch normal gay porn or imagine fucking a guy while wanking. However, I've never in my life actually met a guy I'd want to have sex with.
I think it comes down to the spectrum of sexuality idea. You might never want to bum a chap in reality but maybe there's a tiny percentage that likes the fantasy now and then. I think that's rather normal for those who are comfortable with themselves to see things that way. You'll get people fitting in right across from extreme to extreme and everything in between.
Find a feminine guy, get drunk with them, and blow them. Simple as. Feminine boys are a gateway drug for confused straight guys. I'd be happy to volunteer myself.
