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>> | No. 2130
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Are there any 'resting actors' out there? |
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>>2130 |
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>>2131 |
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>>2133 |
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Recovering alkie here. I was drinking 2 bottles of vodka a day at the height of my infamy (seems incredible now), but life is honestly so much simpler since I gave it up. Drinking becomes a full-time occupation, complete with work-related stress and so on. Relationships are so much easier now too. Best thing though is not having to endure the dreaded wait for the offy to open in the morning any more. Fucking brutal. |
>> | No. 2253
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Another recovering alkie here. I slowly (around 3 years) built a daily routine from 2-4 beers at first to a bottle of vodka a day towards the end with a pretty reliable "sober during the day, booze at night until knock-out" rhythm. A few days, sometimes nearly week break did happen and always ended with a very unpleasant feeling auto-pilot episode in the supermarket (did/does anyone else get that? You go to the shop with every intention of not buying booze, but then physically cannot bring yourself to pass by the aisle?). I eventually quit when, after a move and not quite familiar with the new place I woke up with a wet patch in the stair case because apparently I couldn't find the toilet — and absolutely no recollection of when and how it had happened. |
>> | No. 2909
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>>2130 |
>> | No. 2910
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>does anyone else get that? You go to the shop with every intention of not buying booze, but then physically cannot bring yourself to pass by the aisle? |
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>>2910 |
>> | No. 2912
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I don't understand addiction. There comes a point, when doing anything to excess, where I begin to hate it and have to stop doing it for a while. Any feelings of longing which led me to that excess in the first place are invariably trumped by the disgust which I start to feel, and my desire to feel normal again. When I'm feeling as trashed as can possibly be, or waking up feeling like death and surrounded by detritus and the barely-breathing bodies of a bunch of strangers, the 'boredom' of sobriety is the most wonderful goal I can imagine. |
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>>2130 |
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>Get hobby |
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>>2923 |
>> | No. 3186
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Two weeks off, which was heaven. Back on the juice now, though. fml, orz. |
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>>2916 |
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>>3186 |
>> | No. 4288
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How do you lot cope with the sleeping? It's the sleeping on an off day that's the worst. I just fucking can't, and I get weirdly paranoid about it, the constant self-questioning that occurs during a sober bedtime drives me insane. I've found that a few co-codamol help, especially if with a hard limit of a couple of cans of Stella or equivalent, but fucking Christ it is brutal trying to get to sleep otherwise. I was awake three days earlier this year at the end of a particularly intense and extended bender, full on rattling the whole time. Ugh. |
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>>4288 |
>> | No. 4291
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When young I saw homeless people and wondered how they got there, now I know. |
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>>4288 |
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>>4292 |
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P.S.: I finally got the chance to watch Withnail & I. What an absolute masterpiece. |
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>>4291 |
>> | No. 4296
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I like a drink more than your average person, but really chaps, how does it get to a stage of dependency? |
>> | No. 4297
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What's worse for your health, drinking 10 units in one night over a whole week (Saturday binge) or 20 units spaced out steadily over the week? I usually have a binge. |
>> | No. 4298
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> I like a drink more than your average person, but really chaps, how does it get to a stage of dependency? |
>> | No. 4299
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>>4296 |
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>>4299 |
>> | No. 4301
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It started for me when I was 20 or so. I'd be up for a drink but nobody else in the shared house was so I'd nail a few cans and watch a few movies on my own. Over the years that became an 8-pack and a couple of nights a week, to kill the boredom of work, which means that if you're getting fucked up with mates at the weekend it's four out of every seven nights spent intoxicated. It's a seamless drift into a nightly thing from there, especially if circumstances allow it to progress (single/living alone). |
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>>4301 |
>> | No. 4303
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Being an alcoholic doesn't feel good. |
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>>4301 |
>> | No. 4305
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>When do I need to be worried that this will intensify, and start affecting my day to day life as well? |
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>>4304 |
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>>4312 |
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>>4489 |
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>>4675 |
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The past few weeks have been very clean, with small amounts of booze on the weekend, and only with friends, never alone. It pleased me to discover that I can actually fall asleep without any alcohol in my system. Who would've thought, eh? |
>> | No. 4679
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I'm having my 20th beer of the weekend right now, I've lost count to be honest. I've posted all my favourite tunes on face book and now I'm here typing bollocks into a computer. |
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>>4676 |
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>>4680 |
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>>4681 |
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>>4685 |
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>>4680 |
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On a slightly similar note, I am experiencing the beginnings of amphetamine psychosis. Disassociation and other peculiar things (mild OEVs, paranoia, etc). It's not terribly pleasant. I've been taking the stuff 3 or 4 days a week to help me be awake for work. In the recent weeks where I'd run out, apart from sleeping a lot I've actually been a great deal more productive. |
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>> | No. 4782
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Not convinceed I'm an alcoholic but people around me have started calling me one, If I am I'm pretty sure I'm a 'high fuctioning alcoholic' In that I seem to be perfectly capible of holding down my office job, and I am riddilously active socialy. |
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>>4782 |
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>>4782 |
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swimming-in-the-nile.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>4785 |
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>>4785 |
>> | No. 4788
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And necking another pint of water when you get up for a piss, too. |
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>>4785 |
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>>4789 |
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>>4792 |
>> | No. 4838
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Jesus you fucking brits are weak as hell. You just quit, punk asses. |
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>>4838 |
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>>4838 |
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>>4288 |
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withrain.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>5046 |
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>>5047 |
>> | No. 5126
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Has anyone here gotten those nagging pains around the liver area or am I just specially, royally fucked? |
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>>5126 |
>> | No. 5177
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I'm kind of worried i'm turning into too much of a lifestyle drinker. I work in a pub right, so I drink after every shift, and then if I'm not at work, I come in and have a few beers in the evening anyway. I'm not on the same level as you lads doing litres of spirits a day, and to be honest I'm more worried about getting fat than getting liver disease, but still. I feel incomplete and restless without at least 3 drinks before bed. Trouble is, I have a mate who is similar, but he's up to drinking like 8 strong polish beers every night, and I don't wanna be doing that day in day out out of compulsion rather than enjoyment. I guess it's the constant nature of the habit that worries me rather than the amount consumed in each sitting. I'm druink now, hence this post. Had 4 pints of fuller's ESB - man if you don't know about that stuff then shit, don't even call yourself a beer drinker - it's some fucking evil witches brew I tell you. It's only 5.5%abv, but 3 pints fucks you up, properly. I've had beers claiming to be 8%+ that have affected me far less. Seriously, next time you find a pub serving ESB, see how many pints it takes to hit you. Unless you're some alcoholic behemoth, you'll finish your second and be like "fuuuuuck, I'm feeling that already" |
>> | No. 5184
5184
Something weird has just happened to me that suddenly and very sharply brought my drinking into focus after not really worrying about it since my last ultrasound over a year ago. |
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>>5177 |
>> | No. 5188
5188
>I always thought that, because I don't drink spirits (or even wine) habitually, I could never be an alcoholic but now I'm not so sure. |
>> | No. 5191
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>>5188 |
>> | No. 5192
5192
The other one to watch out for is larger cans. An 8-pack of most export lagers is usually 8x440ml = 3520ml. By comparison a Stella "La Grande Bier" or whatever it is, the pint can, is 568ml. 8 cans of that is 4544ml, which is a pretty substantial difference. |
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>>5191 |
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>>5193 |
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>>5191 |
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>>5207 |
>> | No. 5221
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Not to dick around with you right now, but give booze to those animals every day and see how long they last. Saying your drinking isn't a problem because your granddad survived to 88 is like saying that asbestos isn't a problem because his loft was full of it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, eh? Go take a lungful of those microfibres and see. Chances are - not really. Yes, you may survive anyway, but that doesn't mean that what you are doing is healthy, and expecting your genes to protect you is daft and also missing the point: alcoholism is a problem because it makes life a miserable drudge, and robs you of all motivation and the interesting things you could be doing instead. Don't spend your days inside knocking back 12 cans of export strength lager a night, mate. No good will come of it. |
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>>5221 |
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>>5229 |
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>>5230 |
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>>5235 |
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>most alcoholics are happy as long as they can afford it, handle it, and enjoy the feeling. |
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>>5257 |
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>>5258 |
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Does anyone else find if they drink less than enough to have a real hangover, they can't get to sleep then wake up far too early and not be able to get back off? |
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>>5261 |
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>> | No. 5362
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This thread was a good read. I found it really helpful as a warning. I don't think I'll drink by myself any more, unless I'm testing my home-brew, that is. I'll try to give most of that away, anyhow. |
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>>5184 |
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>>5522 |
>> | No. 5773
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One of the former posters here. (>>4782,>>4785>>4792) |
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>>5773 |
>> | No. 5795
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OP here. |
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>>5795 |
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>>5795 |
>> | No. 5851
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I've not eaten any solid food in three days and slept rough in a park tonight. Maybe it's time to call my GP, I can barely even move. |
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>>5851 |
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Finger.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>5795 |
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>>6244 |
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>>6269 |
>> | No. 6479
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For the first time in a good few years, I'm actually able to look at a drink as something to look forward to, as a treat at the end of the week, rather than it feeling like a cycle that I need to start again, as soon as possible, once the hangover has worn off. |
>> | No. 6480
6480
I'm trying to go booze free for 2 weeks. I already failed after 2 days, although it was just 2 glasses of wine. It's a lot harder than i'd ever anticipated, but then I suppose one often dosen't realise what a hold a drug truly has on them until one tries to break free. |
>> | No. 6481
6481
yoda-sad.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() Do. |
>> | No. 6482
6482
I've been alcohol free for around 2 and a half months. I wasn't that much of a heavy drinker compared to some of the other lads here (I'd get drunk 3-4 times a week, around 15-25 pints a week), but I decided to see if I'd feel any better physically/mentally if I stopped it altogether. I haven't noticed any difference and will probably start drinking again, when the mood strikes me. |
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>>6482 |
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>>6509 |
>> | No. 6523
6523
It is the most shattering experience of a young man's life when one morning he awakes and quite reasonably says to himself, "I will never not be an addict." |
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>>6523 |
>> | No. 6976
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Resting actor, ey? |
>> | No. 6977
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I went out last night and now I'm very hungover. |
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>>6976 |
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>>6978 |
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>>6976 |
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>>6982 |
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>>6982 |
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>>7328 |
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>>7330 |
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well shit. |
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>>7590 |
>> | No. 7593
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I miss being underage, where booze was so much more of an effort to come by. |
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OffTheWagon.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>7330 |
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>>7594 |
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>>7595 |
>> | No. 7600
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A friend cancelled on plans this evening because she was 'in one of those moods that I hate'. Texting her about it, she said that when she was abroad this past week "I had alcohol for the first time in five months. Not massive amounts- little and often but that could have disrupted my serotonin levels". |
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>>7600 |
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>> | No. 7674
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I've started drinking again on a daily basis after a year long dry spell. What's great is that the anhedonia is gone, replaced with emotional instability, When I'm drinking my mood is stable and upbeat. When I'm not I'm manic depressive with the depressive definitely the dominant of the two, even that feels like a welcome change of pace to the flatline I had become accustomed to. I'm expecting this to be just a phase whilst I get on top of what I'm doing with myself again, before I sober up. I've done the whole Constantly drunk thing and it's not worth it. I just wish there was some way to not be emotionally dead and not depressed at the same time. |
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>>7674 |
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>>7716 |
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>>7718 |
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>>7716 |
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>>7737 |
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>>7739 |
>> | No. 7743
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I drink when I'm anxious because it makes me not anxious and I know that is probably fine in moderation, but I'm struggling to keep a lid on it. |
>> | No. 7744
7744
Third day in a row picking up 8 tins at the corner shop and the new cashier asks "you don't drink all these on your own, right?". Mumbled some lie about housemates while wishing for the previous guys who never questioned my habit. I think I have a problem. |
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>>7744 |
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>>7748 |
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>>7748 |
>> | No. 7807
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I drank a whole bottle of Bells to myself over the course of yesterday. I need to stop doing this. |
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>>7807 |
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>>7809 |
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>>7808 |
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>>7813 |
>> | No. 7864
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I'm on my 4th bottle of Gin in as many days. With soda water it is just so moreish. Haven't eaten much. |
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>>7864 |
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>>2130 |
>> | No. 7890
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Just took my flatmate's bike on a 3-mile round-trip to the nearest 24-hour off-licence at 3am to grab a quick bottle of vodka after 17 weeks of sobriety. |
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>>7890 |
>> | No. 7898
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Going back about five or so years I had problems with alcohol, as in necking spirits just to be able to go outside. |
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>>7891 |
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>>7899 |
>> | No. 7902
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OP >>2130 here. |
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>> | No. 7904
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Fuck. |
>> | No. 7905
7905
Well lads, today's the first time I actually thought I have a serious problem. I mean the term "high functioning alcoholic" has been tossed around but it's been working pretty well for me. However, today I was out in a city I'm familiar with, but was in unfamiliar places within it. Too much going on in my head. I debated getting some booze from this store near the metro for a bit to ease my mind but went across the way for a coffee instead. I lasted a good minute in line before saying "Fuck it." and marching back across to the store, getting a bottle, then going to the loos to down the majority of it. Then I went to a pub. Things were looking up after that and I bought a big bottle of rum to savour for other times Like now. |
>> | No. 7906
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>>7905 |
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>>7905 |
>> | No. 7908
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Got a wee bit too drunk yesterday and overstayed my welcome at a pub; woke up with bruises and scratches over my neck and a bit of a sprained ankle. |
>> | No. 7909
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swasuk.png ![]() ![]() ![]() >>7908 |
>> | No. 7945
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Moved across the street from a garage that sells booze 24/7. Can see the fucker from my front door. |
>> | No. 7954
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>>7909 |
>> | No. 7956
7956
Can't go two weeks without alcohol. I could if I were with myself. If I was out here with no one, it would be fine, there'd be no need. But people seem to make me. |
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>>7956 |
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>> | No. 7962
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I hiked 3 hours for a bottle of whiskey, perhaps a new low. Today though I came to a realisation. I don't even want to drink that much anymore. I just want to stop hurting. |
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>>7962 |
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>>7963 |
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>>7962 |
>> | No. 7966
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Drinking is boring again and I'm getting heartburn more often than not. Time for another break. It's easier to stay sober as autumn kicks in, and I can give the months catchy names like Sober September and No-Drink November, |
>> | No. 7967
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>>7966 |
>> | No. 7981
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Back on it after a good 8 months off. Had a few slips in the last few weeks but this is the first session where I've realised I'm fully "back". A word of advice, don't keep emergency booze in the house for emergencies. You are just making a provision with which to try and bargain with yourself later in a more fiendy state of mind and law of averages says it's bound to happen sooner or later. Like nuclear war. We're all; going to fucking die. |
>> | No. 7982
7982
The worst part is I just genuinely forgot I had a bottle under the sink or I'd definitely have done it before now. But can still trick myself into believing that having had it in the house all this time while sober is proof I have willpower after all and thus an excuse to reward myself by drinking it..? |
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>>7737 |
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cc.png ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8017 |
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>>8012 |
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>>8015 |
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>>8021 |
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Health is taking a hit. For the past couple of months I've once substituded what feels like half my calories for booze and I've gained some lovely belly girth (my old 34 stretch turned into 38s barely fitting) as well as red-face syndrome. Not just some rosacea but random beet red situations, usually after some kind of extremely minor exercise like bending over to put on shoes. Strange sleep patterns which are oddly enjoyable, can't sleep during the evening but when I wake up I can spend 5-10 9-minute snooze cycles drifting off into nearly lucid brief dreams. I feel bloated all the time, have fantasies of being hungry and procure a bunch of shitty food only to eat about a 1/4 of it before I feel sick and can't eat the rest. |
>> | No. 8034
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>>8033 |
>> | No. 8035
8035
My drinking has taken a huge dip after I switched to using weed to help me sleep instead. In the past week I think I've only had a couple drinks, nothing to excess. Using modafinil some days to keep me switched on and more productive too. Just thought I'd share. |
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>>8035 |
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>>8037 |
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>>8038 |
>> | No. 8057
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I just re-read the entire thread and it's a trip down memory lane as well as a reminder for how long I've been at this. Annoyingly, I can only almost tell which were my posts. Short term memory loss I'm used to, but this long term memory loss? A close friend recently tried to remind me of events that happened 20 years ago... I have no memory of them. |
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>>8057 |
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>>8059 |
>> | No. 8061
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Currently taking care of 3 people with ARBD at work, very similar to dementia, and it is somewhat of a wake up call. It's pretty shit lads. |
>> | No. 8062
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>>8058 |
>> | No. 8063
8063
Never posted in this thread, never even looked at it, I just keep seeing Richard E Grant's grin popping up in star. What do you even do in here? 'Yeah I'm drunk tonight lads'. Is that it or is there more to it? Is it like a recovery support group? |
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>>8063 |
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>>8063 |
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yeah I'm drunk this afternoon lads. |
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>>8063 |
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Naltrexone is really good for alcohol it takes away the power of the thought of drinking, so to speak. It feels like there is no craving. Then in a few days there are no thoughts of drinking |
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>>8073 |
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>>6523 |
>> | No. 8078
8078
Last night I blacked out in the front of an Uber and the driver thought it'd be a good idea to wake up my grabbing my wrist instead of shaking my shoulder or knee. Long story short, blacked out as I was, the Judo/BJJ kicked in and a broke his arm in two places. I then fell over 15-20 times between his car and my house. A distance of maybe five yards. |
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>>8078 |
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8080
>>8079 |
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>>8079 |
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>>8081 |
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>>8082 |
>> | No. 8085
8085
The pretty one behind the counter at my local Turkish supermarket just asked me why I drink so much, with genuine concern in her eyes, as I breezed past to grab my fourth 12-pack of the weekend. I told her not to worry. She smiled. I'm in love, or I would be if I gave a fuck about anything other than listening to nu metal covers of clsssic rock tracks in the dark with a sea of empty cans around me. |
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>>8085 |
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>>8075 |
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>>8087 |
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>>8087 |
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>>8089 |
>> | No. 8091
8091
I've struggled with alcoholism for years. I've never posted in this thread before, because in typical "yeah, but I'm not THAT bad" fashion I thought I didn't need to, but I've been setting a bourbon glass on the worktop the last few months for after dinner and regularly finishing the bottle. I have been trying to "cut down" but it's not working. |
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>>8090 |
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>>8091 |
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As all things go I'm surprised that this fanfiction is still continuing. |
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>>8094 |
>> | No. 8096
8096
1523921871194.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() Fuck alcohol, Fuck the people who sell it. Fuck the people who make it. Never again. |
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>>8096 |
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>>8096 |
>> | No. 8099
8099
I've been living (if you could call it that) so differently for so long from most of the population that I feel like a member of a different species. Pretty surreal to realise that you have pretty much nothing in common with most people when it comes to milestones and shared experiences. |
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8100
>>8099 |
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>>8099 |
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8102
Was supposed to be meeting someone last night. Woke up about an hour ago with "I gotta feeling" playing on speakers I literally never use unless I have company to learn I apparently passed out drunk before my friend even arrived. There was an almost full can of room-temperature Scrumpy Jack on my desk. I ignored it until I realised I have an entire sixpack of Romanian lager in the fridge. Then I unignored it. Happy Sunday pissheads and recovering pissheads! |
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8103
>>8092 |
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>>8103 |
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>>8103 |
>> | No. 8111
8111
Well, great. I managed two weeks off, business travel induced drinks but I managed to keep it under wraps and OK. All going swimmingly. Then I bought a bottle of Gin. Blah blah, fuckedup, whatever. Except I just gone done did and broke down in tears in public. I think I hid it OK, I live in London and I found a corner and just wallowed... might be time to end it. |
>> | No. 8112
8112
Microdosing shrooms and using medicinal weed to help with sleep at night has severely reduced my consumption of alcohol. Had a drink for the first time in weeks the other night but didn't really feel the need like I usually do, felt pretty pointless actually. I'm not saying everybody should pkunge into drugs but it has definitely helped my emotional stability. |
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>>8111 |
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>>8113 |
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>>8103 |
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>>8115 |
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>>8116 |
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>>8117 |
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>>8115 |
>> | No. 8138
8138
Getting drunk is getting pretty boring. All that money spent even after getting pre-drunk at home, all those mostly forgettable conversations with mostly forgettable people. I don't even make lasting friends or meet girls when I'm out drinking so it all ends up being pointless. |
>> | No. 8139
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>>8138 |
>> | No. 8140
8140
I had a bit of a drink and a smoke with a middle aged Irish gypsy on a doorstep somewhere. When I wanted to leave he got weird and demanded £10 for the few puffs of weed and the sips of whisky. He was a big guy and a former boxer who'd done prison time for armed robbery so I told him no in the politest possible terms and walked away, but not before hearing that he'd follow me home and bash me head in. |
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>>8140 |
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>>8141 |
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>>8142 |
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>>8138 |
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>>8142 |
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>>8144 |
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>>8144 |
>> | No. 8198
8198
Thread OP here. |
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>>8145 |
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>>8198 |
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>>8198 |
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>>8198 |
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>>8202 |
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>>8203 |
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>>8200 |
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>>8204 |
>> | No. 8209
8209
Seemed like a good idea to go sober at the time due to health issues but fuck it why do I bother. Being fucked up consistently is much better than reality. |
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8210
>>8209 |
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>>8209 |
>> | No. 8212
8212
viper smoke crack for life.png ![]() ![]() ![]() |
>> | No. 8213
8213
>>8211 |
>> | No. 8214
8214
Vaguely related, a girl I really like - but who doesn't yet know that I'm a fully signed up chip-carrying member of Resting Actors Anonymous - gave me a bottle of spirits made in her home town. I need to find someone to take it off my hands but not drink the fucker like every single alcoholic friend in denial I have. |
>> | No. 8215
8215
>>8214 |
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>>8214 |
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>>8215 |
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>>8217 |
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>>8218 |
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>>8219 |
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>>8220 |
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>>8221 |
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>>8222 |
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>>8223 |
>> | No. 8244
8244
My liver hurts. Am I fucked? No other obvious symptoms. Feel quite happy not to drink now. |
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>>8244 |
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8246
>>8245 |
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>>8246 |
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8248
>>8247 |
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>>8247 |
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>>8249 |
>> | No. 8251
8251
Having my first drink since November 26th, when I returned from the highlands and made the decision to quit the stuff for a while and become a more outdoorsy kind of person. Unfortunately the nearest place that qualifies as "the outdoors" is around an hour and a half to two hours away and I never really found the motivation to drive that far. My plan was to take a very long break from drinking and then maybe only drink alcohol if I acquired a social life or to gain courage for doing worthwhile solitary stuff like playing at open mic nights or going to gigs (maybe a couple of times a month). Essentially having a semi-legitimate reason to drink instead of drinking at home merely to make the time go by quicker and as a coping mechanism for the racing, anxious thoughts. Drinking again just to remember what it feels like to be drunk, like I'm doing now, wasn't quite part of the plan. |
>> | No. 8252
8252
>>8251 |
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8253
>>8252 |
>> | No. 8254
8254
I bought two bottles of beer but they're for a friend to drink. I guess that means I'm relapsing. |
>> | No. 8255
8255
5 days without alcohol or weed, after about 8 years with either/or every day. |
>> | No. 8256
8256
Had some family drama recently and now that it's all over I find myself still drinking considerably more than I was previously. I had a nice little compromise between alcoholism and sobriety going for a little while of getting so drunk I can't stand maybe once a week. Now though I can see myself having quite abruptly having slipped back into the habit of having a beer on the go basically the entire time I'm awake or at least an imminent plan for one. I'm not even getting drunk really, just avoiding ever quite being 100% sober. |
>> | No. 8257
8257
>>8256 |
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8258
>>8256 |
>> | No. 8259
8259
Today I woke up at 2pm, dawdled for as long as I could, and went to get booze around 6ish. My attempts to force myself to be sensible have backfired as I bought a "small" amount of booze which is about to run out. The last offy within walking distance closes/stops serving booze at midnight but I won't be rushing out, I'll be suffering through the alkie's worst nightmare, a waking hangover. Because I deliberately sat here and fucked around typing this post when I realised I might just about have enough time to still rush there. |
>> | No. 8260
8260
>>8259 |
>> | No. 8261
8261
>>8260 |
>> | No. 8262
8262
I've been drinking so heavily this past week that now on this fifth day of heavy drinking I don't even feel drunk after 8 pints of beer. I just feel like myself but with a slightly cloudy head and a massively bloated belly. Pretty annoying because I would usually be pleasantly sloshed by now. If I continue this way then I'd have to supplement the beer with spirits, but fortunately my body is self-limiting in the sense that it can't handle them without protesting through debilitating heartburn. |
>> | No. 8263
8263
>>8262 |
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>>2130 |
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>>8270 |
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>>8271 |
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>>8272 |
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>>8272 |
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>>8274 |
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>>8273 |
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>>8273 |
>> | No. 8328
8328
phil.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() Back on it tonight after years away. Feels like coming home, just like it always does. |
>> | No. 8329
8329
>>8328 |
>> | No. 8330
8330
>>8328 |
>> | No. 8331
8331
That's it. |
>> | No. 8332
8332
Shaitan really loves to weave his twisted web of pernicious poisons and perils in the holiday season. |
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8333
>>8332 |
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8334
>>8332 |
>> | No. 8335
8335
Only got drunk twice so far this month. |
>> | No. 8337
8337
Lads... I sit on a throne of lies but I (just in time) filed my tax return. Apparently HMRC owes me a grand, but all in all I "earned" roughly 200k 5.April 2018-2019. Most of it in RSUs (yes, that one) but fuck me. 0T crowd, I guess. |
>> | No. 8338
8338
>>8337 |
>> | No. 8340
8340
Got so drunk yesterday that I left a trail of vomit trying to make it to the pub bathroom. Time to call it quits for a while. |
>> | No. 8342
8342
>>2130 |
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8343
>>8342 |
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8344
>>8343 |
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>>8344 |
>> | No. 8346
8346
Working from home + social isolation has me back on a full wino routine until the local supermarkets run out. Once the gyms shut that was it for me. No distractions and physical wellbeing meant the end of my willpower. |
>> | No. 8347
8347
>>8346 |
>> | No. 8349
8349
You're in luck, lads. Offies are added to the list of essential businesses. |
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8350
>>8349 |
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>>8350 |
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>>8351 |
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>>8352 |
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>>8351 |
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>>8354 |
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>>8351 |
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>>8356 |
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>>8355 |
>> | No. 8359
8359
I am running low. All I got is a half rum. I felt bad, but then I realised, I am happy when I drink. So I started again. I blame corona. |
>> | No. 8360
8360
Image00005.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() Yesterday I was trying to buy supplies on Uber-Eats because ordinary shops (off-licences) are on there now. Ended up buying a couple of cases of bottled Stella. Back when I drank regularly (daily) I used to be one of those tossers who refuses to drink beer out of a bottle but fuck it. |
>> | No. 8361
8361
>>8360 |
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8362
>>8361 |
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>>8361 |
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>>8363 |
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8365
>>8364 |
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>>8365 |
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>>8366 |
>> | No. 8368
8368
Happy 10 years, thread! |
>> | No. 8369
8369
>>8368 |
>> | No. 8371
8371
A decade of boozefa.gs. |
>> | No. 8372
8372
>>8365 |
>> | No. 8373
8373
Ask not for whom that bell doth toll |
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>>8372 |
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>>8372 |
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>>8375 |
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>>8375 |
>> | No. 8378
8378
my-son-has-replaced-me-with-a-cardboard-daddy.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8375 |
>> | No. 8379
8379
>>8378 |
>> | No. 8380
8380
The people I took for granted I now no longer get to see. The people I had a text relationship are all suffering. And here I am using "essential purchases" to excuse buying booze. I feel like such a shit. |
>> | No. 8381
8381
>>8380 |
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>>8381 |
>> | No. 8383
8383
Why is there the educated drunk stereotype? It usually revolves around poetry and literature, and acting to a lesser extent. |
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8384
>>8383 |
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8385
>>8383 |
>> | No. 8386
8386
>>8384 |
>> | No. 8387
8387
As someone who used to contribute to this thread, I've cut back over the years to the point where I'm only drinking every once in a while and generally not to tremendous excess. |
>> | No. 8388
8388
>>8387 |
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8389
>>8388 |
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8390
>>8389 |
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>>8390 |
>> | No. 8392
8392
The lockdown has made me bored of drinking. |
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8393
>>8391 |
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>>8393 |
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8395
>>8394 |
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>>8395 |
>> | No. 8398
8398
I don't know if it's a level where I could be considered an alcoholic, but I've been drinking significantly more than I used to since lockdown began. I don't know if it's because I quit smoking, but I feel like the only thing that gives me pleasure nowadays is booze. |
>> | No. 8399
8399
>>8398 |
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>>8398 |
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8401
>>8400 |
>> | No. 8402
8402
champion.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8396 |
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>>8402 |
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>>8387 |
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>>8404 |
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>>8404 |
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>>8406 |
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>>8406 |
>> | No. 8409
8409
I have been drinking every night and blacking out for the past 3 weeks. I wake up feeling like death and drink some more to get rid of the hangover, and start work. I get off work, and start all over again. |
>> | No. 8410
8410
>>8409 |
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8411
>>8409 |
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8412
>>8409 |
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8413
>>8409 |
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>>8412 |
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>>8414 |
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>>8415 |
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>>8416 |
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>>8417 |
>> | No. 8434
8434
Can someone give me a list of documentaries or TV shows that document the horrors of being a rested actor? Did Theroux do one? I want something to watch while tripping. |
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8435
>>8434 |
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8436
>>8434 |
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8438
>>8434 |
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8439
>>8434 |
>> | No. 8440
8440
lucozade.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8438 |
>> | No. 8441
8441
>>8440 |
>> | No. 8443
8443
had a couple of drinks.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() I got so drunk that I ended up going on one of my long drunken strolls. It was mostly uneventful, but I came across a crime scene where a man was stabbed in the back outside a casino because of some pedestrian argument about money. I spent some time trying to chat up the cute policewoman who was managing the police cordon, but unfortunately I didn't get her number. She obviously enjoyed the attention though because she was giggling at all my jokes and didn't mind my playful tugs at her cute policewoman's hat. |
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8444
>>8440 |
>> | No. 8445
8445
image.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8444 |
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>>8445 |
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>>8446 |
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>>8447 |
>> | No. 8449
8449
Theroux had a new film out in January and has been working on the radio all through lockdown. |
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8450
>>8449 |
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8451
>>8450 |
>> | No. 8452
8452
homer.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8451 |
>> | No. 8453
8453
>>8449 |
>> | No. 8454
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>>8453 |
>> | No. 8455
8455
When I quit drinking in February, after a couple of months I noticed that I had the ability to just make myself feel okay. Gradually this ability became more powerful and "okay" became "pretty good". Then I started drinking heavily in August (to meet people - terrible idea) and noticed this abiility gradually started disappearing. |
>> | No. 8456
8456
>>8455 |
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8457
>>8455 |
>> | No. 8458
8458
Is it normal to feel just low, down, and out after quitting alcohol? I am slowly losing the drive to live. |
>> | No. 8459
8459
>>8458 |
>> | No. 8460
8460
>>8458 |
>> | No. 8461
8461
I am not an alcoholic, my poison is weed, but reading this thread felt very relatable so I hope you don't mind if I join in. |
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8462
>>8461 |
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8463
>>8462 |
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8464
>>8463 |
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8465
>>8463 |
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8466
>>8464 |
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>>8466 |
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8468
>>8466 |
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8469
>>8466 |
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>>8469 |
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8471
>>8468 |
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8472
>>8466 |
>> | No. 8473
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>>8472 |
>> | No. 8474
8474
Counting back the years, I've always loved being off my tits. At times it wasn't alcohol but that has been the drug of choice to make the voices shut the fuck up and let my mind get some rest since I was 14. That's more than 25 years back, so no doubt my brain and body adapted. "Plan 50" seems tempting. Just spend what I earned until I turn approximately 50 and then end it. Exit bag sounds good. |
>> | No. 8475
8475
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>> | No. 8476
8476
When I'm not drunk enough, after a week or so I need to apply a new cover to my pillows at least. The sheets can wait, I can use some other sheets make up for it.The duvet cover is worse, I do not get why it gets spoiled. Something to be gotten rid off. Maybe I should get fibre bedding and not feather bedding. Much more cleanable. |
>> | No. 8477
8477
whatsleft.jpg ![]() ![]() ![]() >>8476 |
>> | No. 8478
8478
Liver's playing up again for the first time in years. For the first time ever I got a sharp pain (as opposed to a dull one) the other night and so I "quit drinking" for most of the week but now am stupidly getting drunk again to celebrate how sensible and productive I've been with my week of sobriety. Three beers in and I know I should leave it but I have another 9 in the fridge and I'm thinking "fuck it I'll enjoy tonight and then quit tomorrow" but I've said that literally thousands of times. |
>> | No. 8479
8479
What do you lads do about the pissing if you're a light sleeper? Do you just need to stop drinking for a while and your bladder repairs a bit? Or is it the prostate? Or kidneys? Whatever it is mine are right cunts, gets better when I don't drink for a while. Is this the kind of thing that your body sorts out after a bit, or am I always going to be a few days of drinking away from pissing up daisies? |
>> | No. 8480
8480
>>8468 |
>> | No. 8481
8481
>>8480 |
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8482
>>8480 |
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8483
>>8481 |
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>>8483 |
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