10 months and 1 day off the booze. Today I cracked. Went to the petrol station and spent my overdraft on a small amount of beer that would still have been small, but not quite so small, if I had gone to my local off-licence instead but was embarrassed because I was one of those cunts who always goes on about how I live sober. Of course I'm proper 10 sheets to the wind fucked because I'm not used to it after so long.
Discuss either one of the following:
Alcohol, praise it or slag it off, it's still a drug so belongs here
OR
Trying to quit any drug, legal or otherwise
I'm going to fall asleep soon due to intoxication. Then I'm going to wake up at something ridiculous like 3am and be hungry as fuck but nowhere is open that sells food. Then I'm going to eat toast with nothing on it, not even flora/butter, out of sheer hunger while waiting for the day to start. Then I'm going to tell my family I fell off the wagon and blame them somehow to emotionally blackmail them into giving me money to spend on booze. I know this song, I sang it for a decade, and now I'm dancing like a past-it slapper at an 80s night. Fuck.
Alcohol's effects vary massively with me. I'm not particularly confident or talkative but sometimes a few beers opens me up in both those respects. Then it only takes a couple more until I'm speaking bollocks sadly. Other times I just feel kinda happy and buzzing but quiet. Still other times it just makes me feel sleepy and depressed.
Marijuana is a superior drug in almost all ways but I enjoy the taste of a good beer.
Stopped smoking weed today bro, and it's fucking killing me.
I've ended up doing half of the work I was meant to do tomorrow, which leaves my whole morning open. And I honestly cannot start a morning properly without a spliff.
''I'm going to fall asleep soon due to intoxication. Then I'm going to wake up at something ridiculous like 3am and be hungry as fuck but nowhere is open that sells food. Then I'm going to eat toast with nothing on it, not even flora/butter, out of sheer hunger while waiting for the day to start. Then I'm going to tell my family I fell off the wagon and blame them somehow to emotionally blackmail them into giving me money to spend on booze. I know this song, I sang it for a decade, and now I'm dancing like a past-it slapper at an 80s night. Fuck.''
know those feels bro, lol but I could never be an alki. Because an alki has no respect for himself.
