I tried to post something similar to this at the other place but then I decided that I would like a more refined and well thought out response.
Very very very long story short I am considering two options and they are buy an ounce of each and get severely fucked up all day and then take a sufficient blast of the dark one to take me out of the game, which I am wondering how fucking much will be sufficient as I have tried it once recently. I will have to get on to that later though.
So yeah it's either that or buy a van and head off on the road and see what happenss and probably end up making myself out of the game in the same way just somewhere warmer and sunnier using the same methods. Only thing that worries me with that is ending up sharing a cell in a Turkish jail with several hundred cockroaches knee deep in shit and piss and a very muscular guy called Mustafa that hasn't seen a woman for 23 years. And by the way, the shit and piss is up to my knees not the cockroaches.
So what do you think? And, yeah if anyone remembers me I have a penchant for threesomes with prostitutes.
I will add to this as we go on on, but I have to be up at ten.
By the way, I won't leaving in sadness, I just can't be bothered any more. Don't see the point. I've got about 16 or 17 grand to hit the road with, and that money has not solved problems that I thought it would.
That in itself has done my head in, I thought that large amounts of money could solve any problem.
And now when I think about it, I have some very very interesting tales from the last year to tell you guys, and I always write my posts with clarity and include every detail. There is one event that I am dying to tell you about but I have to save it for later, not only because of the time of day, but because I want to detail the events in the order that they happened. Then you will most likely see why I feel the way I do.
Depending on what happens, if someone could plead a serious case of need I would be more than happy to.
£12,500 would be reserved for a certain person and the rest... Who knows? But I'm not a cunt and no one is getting anything if they don't need it.
I'd also be interested if anyone else is in a position where they feel that they would like to just fuck everything off and see where the road takes them. I would not be planning anything apart from the time that I am leaving, and even then that would probably be pretty random. No tyre kickers please...
Anyway I have given my pipe a final scraping and I am smoking a snout to get some ash on it and then I will be gone by 3 o'clock. I keep fucking staying up too late with the fucking phone ringing but I have cut that down.
I am actually looking forward to getting all of this down.
I really would if I had the time but I simply can't write it without including the proper details. I do promise though that you will get all of it tomorrow.
Now I need to drink my Tropicana orange juice, with bits of course because they are good for you and we all want to be healthy don't we? After all your body is your temple.
>>7355 I'd say take a van or something. Travel using the money you have, but keep your plans open. I'm actually planning on leaving soon, traveling with whatever I can fit in a backpack and just walking east. I figure it'll be a lot more interesting than sitting here and doing nothing, or ending it all. I have around 8k to do so, but I'll be living like a hobo so maybe it'll last me for a while.
Even so I am not a fucking nutter and I am in no way planning on doing it and taking people out with me, and like I said, I'm not sad about it at all, so it's not one of them ones where it's some crazy nutter with dangerous psychological issues. And when I do do it it would be in private and whoever was with me would not have any idea it was going to happen. And anyway, it's fucking 3 o'clock now so I am off. You will understand more when I add more to the thread.
I just don't see the point. It's other people's behaviour and humanity in general.
Because I know it is guaranteed pain free and it will feel fucking nice. I know because I have had one accidental OD before years and years ago and it was actually fucking lovely and I was COMPLETELY unaware that it had happened.
Well I didn't end up posting more out of sheer laziness.
The only thing that I want to made clear is that I'm not leaving feeling sad or whatever, it's just a fucking loss of faith in humanity as a whole.
We, as people wouldn't piss on each other if we were on fire unless there was a fucking pound note involved in it for us somewhere. It's a shame really because if we were to work together instead of singularly as we do, with too much worry about what's fucking in it for ME ME ME it would be immeasurable what we could achieve. The sky really would be the limit.
But yeah, fuck it, to be honest I've got out of life what I have wanted to and I can't think of anything more that I would like to do that wouldn't be a repeat of something that I have already done previously.
So I am going to crack on and drink this very beautifully prepared vodka and orange and then crack on and utilise the eighth of tackle that I've got made up in this set of crown jewels (tools) right here in front of me. If I've anything more to post it will just be some random thought that I have had whilst I am having this drink, if I post anything more after that it will be a sad reflection on the state of the fucking quality of the persian rugs that we have to fucking suffer here in this shit country.
Like I said, there isn't a hint of sadness, I just feel like clocking out and I ain't fucking going to Switzerland or wherever it fucking is just so that I can do it, and pay a fucking small fortune to do so. That would be a fucking liberty, wouldn't it?
Take it easy lads, and I hope it will somehow go down in .gs history what has taken place here lol. That somehow does go a long way in putting a biiiiig smile on my face. Just again, I have to stress, it is with happiness that I bid you farewell. I very much doubt that there will be any huge development in humanity that would make me sad that I have missed it, unless somehow the Venus Project were to somehow come to fruition in the next 24 hours :D
I will be drinking my vodka and orange, and reading this magazine that I had to buy an online sub to as it had some particularly juicy local gossip that I just HAD to catch up on, then I will be taking what I am hoping will be a fucking exceptionally lovely final hit, and if the OD I had all them years ago is anything to go on, I will be completely oblivious as to what happens after that.
>>7373 Can you at least tell me how you came to this (final)stage in your life? What should have happened differently for you not to top yourself this early morning in this cold Spring? At your happiest, what were your thoughts for your future?
As for the ME-ME-ME culture, it is a transitional period. It hasn't been like this for long, just a couple of generations, and it will change. Nothing remains as it is forever. If the plight of humanity is why you want to top yourself, then that in itself is also a selfish act. Another story in this grand narcissistic culture. There are many things that could benefit many people that you could do, but you don't want to, because you are selfish too. You say humanity, but you are centre in all of this, and you are using your misgiving about the people around you as props in your own grand narrative. The world is bigger than your limited interactions with the people around you.
Anyway lad, I remember I asked for £1000, and "all the dirty bits before you clock out." You haven't delivered on either, mate.
>We, as people wouldn't piss on each other if we were on fire unless there was a fucking pound note involved in it for us somewhere.
Speak for yourself.
Are you trying to justify doing this to us? It sounds like you are, which implies you have doubts about it or want us to try and talk you out of it despite your protestations to the contrary.
Can you leave details so we can come to your funeral? I want to try and grief-fuck one of your relatives.
> I ask Doug, a rheumy-eyed, heavy-set man with a Dickensian beard, corduroy jeans and lumbering gait of a drunk art teacher, if he's enjoying the party.
>"A lad pissed up my arse earlier," he says.
Good to see the .gs moderation staff in attendance.
Well fucking hell things just get stranger and stranger. Aside from the problems that I have been having, the guy that had been putting me up only started sexually fucking harassing me.
I wouldn't mind so much but he isn't in the least attractive and would not take NO for an answer to the point that I have ended up leaving and decided to stay in a hotel.
I have decided against topping myself for the time being and have tried to start a business venture on a well known website where certain not so legal things can be procured using them things called Bitcoins.
However, just to top it off I have discovered that I have a rather nasty hole in my upper right wisdom tooth and it is fucking agony.
Also getting back to people fucking you off once they feel they cannot get any more of what they want out of you, one of the "friends" I had has stopped responding me since I have cut the persian rugs out.nYou see, it's this shit that really gets me down but I have thought fuck it, I am going to give this business a go and it is going to be boom or bust. If it booms, then it will do wonders for my mental health, but if it goes the other way then I really am going to clock out.
I have worked out that the best way to do so will be to neck a couple of strips diazepam first along with a good couple of drinks and then take the dark stuff as I know for sure that this is a sure fire way of doing the business. And to whoever commented that I was probably taking duff stuff then I don't know what they bloody take me for as surely someone must have worked out that I am in the game, as it were. The one thing that they are right about though is the quality of the stuff these days is fucking awful. Really and truly though it is my ridiculous tolerance that fucked things up for me.
I know that this is the case as I have had people comment before on the size of a hit that I would be preparing and they would be fully convinced that I was going to be a gonner. And please, don't anyone think that I am trying to make myself sound 'ard by saying that, as it just so happens that that is something that I find to be very very frustrating indeed.
I do not get any enjoyment out of the dark, or even a buzz unless I have been unfortunate to have spent a good few days in withdrawal. There was a time recently when I had a very very nice hit and even hd a lovely nod, but that was only because I had just rather unfortunately spent 4 or 5 days sick as fuck. And that was the only one, as from that day forward the situation reverted back to normality. In other words the fucking stuff just went back to being my ball and chain, as it were and that is a very frustrating situation to be in.
My friend has reliably told me that he is going to take me to the addiction services place that he deals with and apparently I can get a script on the same day which will really do wonders for my mental elf. The little fucker has been on at me for days now for a bit of the good stuff. All jokes aside, what I want, and need, not just want is some subs as they are an absolute godsend if you really and truly want off the stuff in your heart of hearts. The reason being is that they stop the gear having any effect on you whatsoever so from a psychological point of view, they personally make me think to myself, well why the fuck am I going to spend money on something that isn't going to have any effect on me. Not that it does anyway, but all I am interested in is not being gear sick and they do a very good job of that indeed so I am hoping that I really can get scripted that quick as then I can stop spending money every day unjust feeling well and being able to function like a normal human being. They may also stop me being so tempted to clock out as I will be able to stop mixing with all the shit cunt ponies that are getting me so down.
It is once again getting late and I have stuff to do in the morning and I am pretty sure you are all going to be very to interested to hear about the guy that wanted to piss in my arse so I will leave you to all think of your list of questions that you are bound to have on the matter.
One positive thing that that particular event has had on me is I now fully understand what it feels like for a woman who is out on the town just trying to having a nice night out but is having to suffer getting constantly harassed by drunken fools and continually having to reject them. I am positive that there will be many a .gs user laughing hysterically as they sip their cups of tea, as when I think about it now it gives me a good laugh but at the time I felt very uncomfortable indeed.
This should really be in /emo/. /A/ isn't your blog no matter how much gear you claim to slam nightly. Maybe you imagined being sexually harassed.
If you really want to kill yourself, take 100 paramol followed by a litre of vodka. Paracetamol plus dihydro will kill you easy. It'll cost about £30-40 quid and then that is you.
Fuck me, I'm sure that you and I met over at the other place at some point. Was your ID Heaven by any chance?
Anyway forget my poor attempt at wit and we shall digress as it surely will lead to something with just a slight bit more entertainment value than you seem to be able to provide us with.
Firstly, you fucking prize prick, I think that someone really ought to get a cow's cunt, stick it on your head and get a bull to fuck some sense in to you.
I do believe unless I am mistaken that I had mentioned that I had decided against topping myself at some point prior to this post or maybe I was too busy writing one about slamming shit loads of coke nightly just so I could lead some cunt like you to believe that when I look in a mirror I shit myself ad exclaim "FUCK ME, WHO'S THAT DOUBLE 'ARD BASTARD' but then I have to face up to the reality that I am just a 13 year old kid try to look liek a kewl n3t d00d cause my mummy has just woken me from my slumber by calling me downstairs for my breakfast and could I please take my Superman jimjams off so she can wash the fucking spunk stains off of them.
Anyway let us get back to at least a semblance of reality. And that is that it was purely because of shit cunts that bear some kind of similarity you both personality wise and the level of their wit.
In fact fuck it, I can no longer be arsed to type any more, so if anyone is interested they better now get on skype and add sean.and.lynsey and I will tell it by voice so I can do other things at the same time.
And oh yeah Im even prepared to enable video so I can show you the bicarb I've just ran to the kitchen for purely so i can pretend its coke to impress you...
>>7439 >>7440 Mate, maybe people wouldn't be confused if you just kept one thread about your never ending suicide attempts. You need to use more words. "I want to kill myself because someone online was mean to me," isn't the right way to go about it.
And yes I am being serious so if anyone does happen want to see what it looks like to have sunk to such fucking los in a shit hole hotel room they better be quick cause I ain't fucking waiting for any cunt.
Especially after filling a vodka bottle i found in a bin with water just to impress you just that little bit more. You know, might as well REALLY push the boat out and do it properly eh?
You want to see someone at their very lowest? Then get on sharpish as I am going out in the hotel garden in the pissing rain for a snout and this bit of gear then I am going back to pretending to be 'ard?
Whats the matter mate? Starting to feel a sense of guilt cause you seem to be the only one that wants to see that shit and you feel if someone else watches too then you're not as bad?
Yeah man cause surely anyone that was even fucking SANE would have this yet want to fuck about considering doing the off and telling the WHOLE user base of .gs about it.
Just to crystal clear I am not offing myself even though I am taking some drugs along with a large vodka and a cigarette.
I am just curious to see if anyone is human enough or man enough or whatever, what the fuck do I know, to actually ask me some questions and get some answers thereby well benefit them or others here later on on life.
Or is it that you are amateurs instead and trying your best to empty the account with the £59.15?
In all seriousness now though I have reached the kitchen so I'm gonna retrieve my sandwich from the fridge.
FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU after having quickly returnee upstairs to get my fags then I'm going outside? Is anyone actually please interested in giving me an opinion or two on a matter or two? I would appreciate it as there are a couple things I am curious about.......
And I may be many things including daft but I am not cunt enough to sit about in the rain for anyone so I am now going outside even though FFFFFFUUUUUUUngain i forgot the orange to accompany the vodka so its gonna ave to be straight and I'm going to smoke 2 or 3 of my b&h gold as I am loaded enough to behave with such extravagance then I am going to fucking bed.
I kmow I omitted to mention the time a ling but its in my pocket and it's the first thing on the cards and then I will post as much as possible as a certain poster is either a PROPER sick nasty bastard or really does need some info....
oh btw having done tht, if there also happen to be some particularly weak stomached amateur seeming cunts don't you find that firstly if you are the same as me then you tend to be pukin during the most enjoyable part of the whole thing when it REALLY would be much more pleasant to be sitting chilling with their mates and then alongside that, the vomit that is being produced doesn't just SEEM to be coming from a different place but which must indeed well and truly be where bile is indeed actually produced, or is it positively worse that I am now fucking deeply saddened, and I do mean deeply on an emotional level and must indeed be a right sad cunt to even be bothered by the fact that they cannot recall such a useless fucking peace of trivia in the first place which they really and truly will never have the need to for anyway unless they happen to end up wanting to become a doctor, which if they are experiencing this shit and it is recorded on whatever laptop that the NHS just so happen to lose on that particular occasion then they will only actually be able to gain the qualification but never actually practise....
Or is it just fucking plain stupid thatI have used the profane term "fucking" an unnecessary amount of times and can no longer be bloody arsed to keep continually checking what they have written as they are that anal that even though they are buzzing out of their minds it is still actually bothering them that they have stopped checking and have even openly declared the fact on .gs which is most definitely the worst place to do so? And even then be cunt enough to have the outright audcity to ask whether I have used the correct whatever the term is for what I am trying to explain. FOR FUCK SAKE WAS I SUPPOSED TO USE WORSE OR WORST? And could someone equally as an be kind enough to explain the difference between the two as some pathways in my brain have most definitely been temporarily altered so I just simply cannot remember?
Oh, also even though I am now freezing my fucking bollocks off i have to say to the fucking wank stain that has unfortunately ended up being brought into this world for a reason on par with that of the common wasp still wants to tell me that I'm pretending to be 'ard by saying I'm slamming proper fire gucci innate blue clearly has not a clue what he is talking about as even I myself impressed by not only the volume of shit I have written but also the variety, needs to go and score somewhere other than the fucking local headshot with his sixteen year old pals?
Sir, I highly respectnyou for taking the time to entertain my blatant sarcasm, and I will gladly continue talking one load of bollocks when have managed to climb the stairs without having a coronary.
whoever Apple think they are to implement their fucking autocorrect in such a rude manner I just do not know.
I was gutted to see the mistakes I did end up making but everything considered I think that I did rather well.
I can no longer be fucked to type but I really would love someone to have enough backbone to come on Skype for the fifteen minutes that remain until i can score some dark so i can go to bed as i would love 2 opinions on 2 matters.
And also as long as i have entertained at least one .gs user, I am happy.
>>7458 Does that mean you won't be giving me a grand?
What a shame. I was daydreaming about all the things I want to do with it, and then having a good life because of the grand. I even daydreamed about taking my future kid to a graveyard, and he would ask me, "Daddy, who is this guy," as he points to the tombstone with your name on it, and I would say, "He was my guardian angel son. He gave daddy something special," with a tear in my eye.
You are actually a nasty evil bastard with what you are suggesting and i am going to say why in a few minutes. Even though YOU KNOW WHY someone else most likely ill not and you really are a cunt for making such a suggestion.
>>7457 Why do you care about your image and how you are perceived on an anonymous imageboard? This fascination with being seen as a "hard" individual is very interesting. Do you want to tell me about it?
>>7462 I'm 28, I live with my mum, and live off her. She is sleeping in the next room, so I can't be heard talking, or someone else talking. I'm not rich enough, smart enough, or have the social cache to start a business, get fairly well-off, live in hotels in different parts of the country, buy a lot of drugs and alcohol, and plan how I would want to kill myself.
Well due to lack of response even though I will still (hopefully) be here I will pay as much attention as I can. But I will be leaving in about as much time as it takes for a cup of water to boil and for me to take the bit of thingy tat SWIM has left so if SWIY wants to continue with SWIM but preferably without using the fucking annoying acronym that I am sarcastically using then Skype would be best. Would someone please explain the fear of using Skype as id love to know out of interest? But fortunately for the wanting to wait I've been told i will only be half hour and that was from 7:16
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>>7437 Repeating again:
>that money has not solved problems that I thought it would.
Why not?
I'm in a major downward spiral that I've let take hold of me, with the fascination that if I won the lottery (or another big win of some sort) all my problems would be solved because I could sort my depressing debt and everything else that gets me down because I can't afford it, like being able to drive which I can't because of the debt I got myself into! All my current problems seem to come down to money, even with the personal problems a lot more minor than yours (Beer and weed, not brown and whatever the fuck else you're doing) I think if I just had the money to sort myself out I would be ok, so ask again why money never solved your problems.
Why else would you post on /A/ unless you wanted advice on what drugs to take? If you wanted help, you would have posted on /emo/. Is it nasty to try help someone with advice when they've clearly had enough of this world?
Do you even know what that word means in this context?
There is a lad who lurks and posts here who likes to make stuff up to get attention, because it is the only way he knows how to interact with others. The reason this thread isn't in /emo/ is because he would be dragged into a constructive discussion and he doesn't want that.
This is /A/, therefore I'm giving advice on drugs.
I don't understand this thread. Has someone amassed the measly sum of 30 snaps and found themselves so shocked to find that it didn't bring them unending happiness that they've decided to off themselves?
Imagine the irony, 30 grand in the bank and still can't score brandy pure enough to OD on?
Sorry that I did not reply tp this question earlier.
It just turns out that foremost issue that I had in my life was a problem with my relationship and the fact that my partner cannot handle drugs in the way that I can and it has caused her a huge problem and the money has made it worse rather than better.
I know some may feel that this thread would have been better on /emo/ perhaps but I wanted to discuss drugs more than anything.
What is the best way to potentiate opiates? It's just that no matter how good the brandy is, I do not ever get a gouch. The only way that I can do so is to be sick as fuck for 5 days or so. Other than that a shit load of valium does the trick but where I am at the moment they are very tricky to get a hold of and there are certain reasons that I do not want to go to my usual source for these things.
And anyway, I have changed my mind on departing as it would make me feel like a quitter and I would be letting certain people down in my life and I don't feel that I should do that to them.
Does anybody know off hand what the current purity levels of brown are suppose to be in the UK? I mean fuck, back in the 90's when I had my first habit, half a 6 of brown would fucking ruin me. When I did that henry the other day I was absolutely shocked beyond belief that it didn't floor me!
Would you like to speak more privately? As depending on the depth of your issues and the reasons behind them I may well be able to help and also be happy to do so. I was just thinking before I read this post fully that what would make me happiest at the moment would be to make someone else happy by solving their issues.
Myself, I have just thought that I would be at my happiest if I was living in the rainforest building houses or whatever for some tribes people for no pay at all with nothing more to worry about than getting fed every day.
Currently I only do the brown as I have to or I will be ill. The only drug I get enjoyment from is the white but even then that is starting to get rather boring. What I would really really love would be some top notch acid.
Just as a brief aside, why does it tend to be that things/food/drugs etc that taste the best or make you feel the best just so happen to be the things that are the worst for you, your body and/or your mind and the things that are the best for you and do you good taste like fucking shit etc?
In all honesty, I have been completely sarcastic when I have been talking about being 'are, it was directed at one poster here in particular and another poster happened to take it the wrong way. The worst thing that I have ever done in my life was to get involved in drugs at all in any way, shape or form. It's just that when I first sampled something that altered my perception it fucking fascinated me no end.
Also I feel very strongly that what led me further down the path of drugs was the fact that parents and teachers etc etc make them out to be far far worse than they actually are and tell lies making out that stuff like weed will kill you. So when I tried weed and it didn't cause me to keel over and die I thought that they must be talking shit about how bad everything else is too and they won't fuck me up as bad as what is made out.
I think that it is time to that we started educating the younger generation more openly and honestly about drugs and how they affect our lives as if I had had the proper info I would not be where I am now with my drug usage.
>>7496 >why does it tend to be that things/food/drugs etc that taste the best or make you feel the best just so happen to be the things that are the worst for you, your body and/or your mind and the things that are the best for you and do you good taste like fucking shit etc?
Because they contain things which are essential in small doses but were very hard to obtain in large quantities in the deep past, so we evolved to have a stronger desire/appreciation for them.
> Does anybody know off hand what the current purity levels of brown are suppose to be in the UK? I mean fuck, back in the 90's when I had my first habit, half a 6 of brown would fucking ruin me. When I did that henry the other day I was absolutely shocked beyond belief that it didn't floor me!
I know what you mean mate, just last year a 5g or 1/4oz deal of speed would see me through a month, but I've been through 5g in the last week alone. It's hard to know, sometimes, when your tolerance is fucked and when the quality of the collies is simply shit.
You can try purifying your #3 base with 28% hydrochloric acid solution and ammonium hydroxide but it's probably more trouble than it's worth. If you really want to blast off you probably want to get something medical grade at this point, there are plenty of pharmaceutical opiates available online.
>>7493 No offence but all your posts have been incoherent and this answer you have given is even more so. The money became a problem because you could buy more drugs..?
>>7495 I don't wanna derail this thread by pouring my problems into it which I've made my own threads in /emo/ before, was just curuous to OPs answer which I think I get the gist of? You should do volunteer work.
Was the humour in that post actually intended? Whichever way, it made me fucking laugh hysterically. Just to be clear, you have pointed out that some or all of my posts have been incoherent when I am admitting to taking shit loads of drugs.
If you actually slipped that in there you are a fucking genius, Sir. If you didn't just say that you did so that you can bask in the glory of being called a genius.
Anyway, on to today's issues. I'm fucking the dark off completely as I am paying for something that isn't giving me any enjoyment whatsoever and is just making me able to function, so I am going to get signed up for the state sponsored addiction. Preferably subs. Well, it's actually they give me subs or I'm not accepting fuck all else from them as I went through hell with the fucking methadone. But that is another story entirely. And for the meantime I have actually secured a good ten or eleven 8mg Subutex which will see me through at least a week if not more.
So with that issue sorted I am wondering if anyone can give an answer to this question. I have had some suspicions that the husband of the hotel owner has been searching through my private stuff whilst I have been out each day, but due to the amount of drugs that I have been taking I thought that it may be fairly reasonable to conclude that it was simply me being a bit paranoid. But anyway I set up some security software on my laptop that will start the webcam recording when it detects movement and it turns out that this fuckwit has indeed been going through my shit and when I got back in just now he has very kindly placed my sin bin on my bedside table. Now, if that isn't saying something without actually saying it then I don't fucking know what is. For one, it's not illegal to possess drug paraphernalia in Great Britain. And secondly he is only meant to be changing the bedding but on the camera that recorded the video with sound also he has spent the best part of two fucking hours searching through my fucking shit.
What I would like to know is what the legalities are on what he is doing here. As I don't think it unreasonable to assume that he is doing this in all of the fucking rooms in the place and it seems just a little bit bloody creepy. Does anyone actually KNOW for certain what the legals are here or where I should look to find out? One thing is for sure is that when I get up tomorrow I am going to GTFO as I am not paying for that shit as I would feel like a cunt to do so.
I am going to finish my cigarette and get my nut down as I will need to be up early and go and find somewhere else for tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to an answer to this one as I am not entirely sure myself...
Oh, I forgot to add that with regards to the coherence of my posts I actually thought that all things considered I had done pretty fucking well to even press the right fucking keys let alone string a sentence together at all.....
I'm very late to the party but for next time try to have some fast-acting benzos on hand, they deal with blood pressure spikes and acute vasoconstriction fairly well and if taken correctly within the cocaine's intranasal window of effect.
Of course, your bigger problem is that cocaine is a fairly effective sodium channel blocker at high doses, which means that along with tachycardia you get your heart rhythm all out of whack too. The benzos should take care of the tachycardia which reduces your overall risk although if you're really worried you can offset cocaine's sodium channel blocking action using a hypertonic IV solution of bicarbonate of soda.
The thing is, if you're sniffing your cocaine in the UK you're probably not overdosing and are rather more likely to be having a simple panic attack. Conversely, if you're IVing your cocaine you'll probably be dead from your OD before any benzos have a chance to kick in or you even remember where your bicarb is, or if you even have any.
tl;dr if you're really in a position to be ODing on coke you'll probably be deaad before you can do anything about it.
Sage for wasting thirty of my own minutes typing out advice that no one will ever be in a position to use.
Thanks for the well written reply. It really was an accident. The stuff I buy is 70% plus purity. I think it was a very close shave to be honest. I didn't think about what I was doing and I put in the same amount of the white as I normally would the brown. Pretty soon after I pulled the needle out I felt the most amazing rush I've ever had but it kept increasing and I knew it was too much. I knew I needed fresh air and as soon as I tried to walk my legs were buckling from underneath me and I couldn't walk. I was convinced I'd had it I even fell down the stairs but managed to get out of the building. Thankfully the od began to subside but I still wasn't quite right. The thought that I knew coke is short acting helped me psychologically to a huge degree. I calmed down and back up to the flat and aside from being scared I began to calm instantly. I was convinced I'd be meeting my maker pretty sharpish though still I just stayed calm with my legs elevated to take pressure off the heart. It's changed my outlook on life. Just to add that if anyone thinks of this a suicide method then DON'T EVEN CONSIDER IT. You will be terrified to say the least lol. This may silly but it also happened to be the beslŕt.
To sort out the mess that is life I'm moving to the isle of Lewis. Can't write anytime
Sorry about that last reply I was half falling asleep so I will continue once I've grabbed my laptop and tell you what my next step is and also a bit more about the coke OD. Speak soon.
Still here. Just done a cold turkey detox, been clean 3 and half weeks. In a Christian community house, they have really helped me. Also got a DVT in left leg. The pain is indescribable. Was in hospital for a week having an access removed, this however was painless. The DVT pain is starting to subside though. I am on daily heparin injections.
But, I will be forever haunted by the legacy that I have been left with.
Spent some time in hospital with DVT, which was the most painful thing I have ever experienced. Had an abscess removed from my groin. Staphylococcus Aureus infection in the blood from this abscess. Anaemia, lymphoedema, pyrexia and a lung abscess.
All very nice. The other remaining two complaints are still being investigated and I just cannot bring myself to talk about that at the moment...
